Thought for the Day – “Unbreakable”

Man the ego is so crazy-strong. It just demands to be seperate and a little “better” / “worse” than everyone. 

My therapist asked me what I wanted to talk about and I said “arrogance”. She asked what makes me think I am arrogant. I said “If you came a picked me up right now and took me to a big meeting at Caltech, I would think I am the smartest person in the room. At the same time, I am the least loveable person in the room”. We were on zoom and her mouth was hanging open. She is obviously not “one of us”. I had to start looking for a new therapist.

I have been contemplating at the first and second traditions in my life. When applied, they make my personal relationships so much easier. If self didn’t assume it knew everything, I wouldn’t need the  steps, traditions and concepts of service for my life.

Humility does not come naturally with the family disease of alcoholism.

“But upon entering AA, I soon take quite another view of this absolute humiliation…”

I have to ‘enter AA’ now and see in my heart how ridiculous it is. When I am reminded, the bottom comes up to meet me and the mind opens up to a Great Power. Then and only then can I just be a ‘bozo on the bus’.

Contemplations for the Day

Am I a loner in my home group?

Am I a loner in my home everywhere?

Do I think I am just a little smarter and less loveable than everyone?

Prayer for the Day

God, show me the things about me that I am afraid to see.